‘Do you want to be a boy?” Keira Bell says that’s a question her mother asked her when she was 14. She had been a tomboy in her youth, from a broken home. When she hit puberty, she suffered, as many a girl does, with the changes and the monthly physical pain. And when the question was raised more than once, she thought it might be her ticket out of misery.
Medical advice further pushed her in the direction of puberty blockers at 16. In a recent essay for Persuasion, she remembers:
The idea was that this would give me a “pause” to think about whether I wanted to continue to a further gender transition. This so-called “pause” put me into what felt like menopause, with hot flushes, night sweats, and brain fog. All this made it more difficult to think clearly about what I should do.
After a year, when offered the option of getting testosterone treatments, she “jumped at it,” saying:
I wanted to feel like a young man, not an old woman. I was eager for the shots to start, and the changes this would bring. At first, the testosterone gave me a big boost in confidence. One of the earliest effects was that my voice dropped, which made me feel more commanding.
Over the next couple of years, my voice deepened further, my beard came in, and my fat redistributed. I continued to wear my breast binder every day, especially now that I was completely passing as male, but it was painful and obstructed my breathing. By the time I was 20, I was being treated at the adult clinic. The testosterone and the binder affected the appearance of my breasts, and I hated them even more. I also wanted to align my face and my body, so got a referral for a double mastectomy. . . . I was a legal adult when it took place, and I don’t relieve myself of responsibility. But I had been put on a pathway — puberty blockers to testosterone to surgery — when I was a troubled teen. As a result of the surgery, there’s nerve damage to my chest, and I don’t have sensation the way I used to. If I am able to have children, I will never breastfeed them.
I’m sorry, but she absolutely does not bear the responsibility. This is child abuse, as is so much of what happened to her in her youth. As she tells it, she was a confused teenager. She didn’t understand what was happening to her body, and she found herself isolated. She had always been a tomboy as she described it, and when puberty hit, it created a rift with the boys she had fit in with previously. She also found herself attracted to girls. And so, when given the choice of becoming a boy, it seemed the solution to her problems.
She started seeing a psychologist at 15 and was diagnosed with gender dysphoria. She recalls:
I was adamant that I needed to transition. It was the kind of brash assertion that’s typical of teenagers. What was really going on was that I was a girl insecure in my body who had experienced parental abandonment, felt alienated from my peers, suffered from anxiety and depression, and struggled with my sexual orientation.
But what did the adults do? They experimented on her.
Five years later, she would de-transition. But a double mastectomy cannot be undone. That “pause” on puberty and testosterone shots have a lifetime of consequences. Teenagers don’t think about infertility and breastfeeding. That’s why there are adults. But the adults failed Keira Bell. And the adults increasingly seem nowhere to be seen on these dangerous issues of gender confusion and ideology, which Pope Francis has described as a nuclear bomb on humanity. Sweet Keira is one of the walking wounded.
At 24, she is able to reflect:
The further my transition went, the more I realized that I wasn’t a man, and never would be. We are told these days that when someone presents with gender dysphoria, this reflects a person’s “real” or “true” self, that the desire to change genders is set. But this was not the case for me. As I matured, I recognized that gender dysphoria was a symptom of my overall misery, not its cause.
In the days after Easter, Governor Asa Hutchinson vetoed a bill that would have made it illegal to conduct such experiments on minors in the state of Arkansas. Mercifully, the Arkansas legislators overrode his veto. But what on earth was he thinking? It shouldn’t have to require courage to protect children from abuse. And yet, sex and ideology prevent adults from seeing clearly. We owe children better. Adults failed Keira Bell. Her bravery should make us vigilant in protecting other minors from the hell she has been through. Puberty is awful enough without the false compassion of gender ideology. Adults need to grow up and stop the contagion, while being sensitive to the people who truly suffer the cross of gender dysphoria. It’s not “phobic” to protect minors from irrevocable harm.
This column is based on one available through Andrews McMeel Universal’s Newspaper Enterprise Association.