“Dying can’t be as bad as living,” he muses. “There’s no way that dying can

be as bad as living. But while you’re living you have to live.

“I don’t know what I’m doing. I just live, I guess, get some food. But I

don’t cook. I go to restaurants every night.” Asked how he fills his days,

he replies: “I don’t do anything. My life sucks.”